In 2024, I was in a relationship with someone I’d planned to marry. Unfortunately, fate had other plans and that relationship ended up not working out. After a few months I found myself really missing having someone to sleep with at night. The idea of owning a doll had been in the back of my mind for many years but I had never acted on it because it seemed too strange to me.

At this point in my life, the dating pool in my area was quite shallow. Even after endless revisions to numerous dating profiles and paying out the nose for premium features, meeting new women was just becoming a challenge. So I decided to treat myself to something I’d always wanted. I did some research on love dolls and concluded that Zelex was offering the best balance of quality and affordability for the type of doll that I wanted to buy. Before I knew it, a very large box was sitting on my doorstep and I met Sadie for the first time. The urge to snuggle (and quite a bit more) was quickly satiated. In fact, I enjoyed her so much that soon after Allie joined us, and then Hannah, too. All Zelex girls, because I love their dolls and their company does right by their customers.

I started shopping for clothes, taking pictures, buying perfumes for them, and posing them around the house.

I’ve found they enrich my life, and they make me happy. They aren’t just for sexual gratification, or for coping with loneliness, although they do a phenomenal job of filling in the gaps that modern dating can leave behind. For me, they are a hobby and something I find fulfilling. I enjoy having something beautiful to admire and take care of. I like having sexy ladies around the house that I can dress up like the women of Resident Evil and Overwatch. Are they decorative? Yes. Are they more? Also yes. And they’re damn good at both. Their bodies are and faces are incredibly realistic looking and feel magnificent. It is truly a sensational experience to enjoy one of these things. A little weird at first, maybe, but you definitely grow to enjoy it quickly in my experience.

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A Journey of Personal Growth

In conjunction with these things, I also genuinely believe I have grown as a person through the experience of owning them. My worldview has actually changed. Doll ownership has taught me the value of unapologetically being myself, and that’s because I don’t go out of my way to hide it from people. My dolls aren’t a shameful or secret part of my life. And I’ve found that by living true to who I am, I attract the kinds of people that belong in my life, that like me for who I am, instead of who I want them to think I am. Bizarrely enough, making friends has actually become easier because I’m not as worried about what people think of me. What opened the door to that kind of thinking was being open-minded enough to ask myself “What the hell? Why don’t I get a doll?” Dating remains a challenge, but my Zelex girls have helped me navigate a world where loneliness is on the rise and love is increasingly hard to find.