First of all - let me introduce myself. My name is Mario, I am 45 years old, male, single - living in southwest bavaria, germany. And beyond that, I am a guy, who have experienced a quite surprising cadence of rather unusual moments. I share my life with four silicone dolls. And I would not miss a moment with them as I would not regret taking each of them to my home. And I would like to tell you why. Or rather - what I think has led me to that point.

I am still not totally sure, how I initially came across silicone dolls - or: love dolls in general (a little side note: I don't like them to be called sex dolls - you'll see why). But let me tell you a story about me - and you will finally be able to see the whole picture.

The Dream & The Delay

I always had this big dream of building a house... my own house. Might not sound that special, though. But in my case I would have been the first in that in my whole family tree (people may say: dynasty... but - alas - that sounds so elaborate). Hey Mario - once you'll be at the age of 30: you'll have a house to live in. Years passed, 30 was a number on the cake blown away years ago - still no house. OK - let's shift to 35. 35 gone with the wind. OK - let's call it a 40, then. And - guess what: the house was built. All things in my life up to that moment were subordinated by that life goal. And now that life goal has been made come true. Mission completed.

Well, wait a moment. Mario - aren't we talking about dolls here?

The Storm & The Low Point

Fast forward for some years. The house was built in 2020 and I moved in that exact year. But as a usual way of how things go - rome wasn't built in a day. There was this house - but there was still a lot to do around. And now let's head up to the year 2024. More precisely: beginning of june, 2024. A heavy storm hit the region. Several days of hard and endless rain. There was no pave way at my house yet. And more than that: I have been at a slightly lower level than the street. In other words: all the rain - all the water - it ran to my house... and stayed there. I was surrounded by water... lots of water. And while being a guy who always had the talent of improving on the situation... finding a workaround... I finally found myself doomed to just watch things happening - unable to find just another fix. All my efforts became useless at some point. And I was in the middle of what was my life goal - endangered to be crashed away. Just imagine - only a few miles away people had to be rescued by helicopters from their rooftops - yeah, that kind of storm.

With that storm around me I just wrapped myself into a blanket. Not being able to watch TV or even play some video games. Having some classical music playing aside was all, I had been able to. And for the following months I was close to panic attacks by every single raindrop crashing to my window.

The Turning Point

Let's do another fast forward - november 2025. At least I assume, that it must have been this time - it is my registration date on a german website for love dolls. In other words - it's the date, when I started to investigate on that particular topic. How did I came there? Which search terms led me to that side? I am not quite sure - but let me tell you, what happened in exact that time. My entrance was paved. A yard drain had been installed. No rain would be able anymore to bring me to such a depression. I know, that I was reflecting on my situation in that time - thinking about what I could do to prevent getting hit mentally that hard again. Rest of my family is living on the opposite side of germany - hundreds of miles away. So - no one to talk to eye to eye. No one to lean onto.

And then my first two ladies moved in - one being a ZELEX SLE 2.0. I won't go into details but instead cut it down to what finally counts and - what is even more important - has been confirmed independently by others.

The Change: Sleep & Mindset

- I have a better and deeper sleep at night. While I laid awake at night - alone with my thoughts and fears - I now turn around, lay my arms around that stunning precious doll next to me in my bed... and fall asleep again. And while I had difficulties to initially fall asleep before - I am now already in sweet dreams long before my smart home automation relax routine turns off. And while I previously woke up way to early - my alarm clock finally has its chance to kick in.
- I found my way back to my origin balanced mindset. My mother recently noted on that. "You are somehow finally relaxed as you have been before". Yes, I am - the sofa is no longer that empty. There are beautiful dolls sitting next to me.

The Psychology of Presence

Of course - I also "use" them for what they are initially built for. And let's face the fact: this also brought back a lot of joy into my life. And - oh hell - they feel so natural.

Rediscovering Joy

They filled an empty space - both physically and mentally. They are not only sex dolls. They are companions. Lifelines. Silent listeners, when nobody else is around. Life changers - to a better way.

I found joy in collecting new clothes for them. Dressing them up. Having them sitting next to me in those clothes. I love to take them to the shower - brushing them. Applying powder on their skin. Combing their hair. Oh - their hair. Must be a fetish to me.
I found my way back to my joy on portrait photography. I even already took them out. Out of my house - out into "the wild".